You are white—
you are male—
you are straight—
just check your DNA;
find something exotic;
identify as a rampant cow.
You can try to resist;
Even the language is against you.
be anything you want—just not you.
I inched into a dank underworld;
writhing bodies and walls smeared with sin.
Drunken lost souls tore away their skin.
My heart pounded and my hands trembled;
I stripped, friends left and we were strangers.
Too shameful to see the crude dangers.
Mindless beats didn’t stop grunting bare flesh;
my ears bled; rats crawled over my skin.
Something slithered in the endless din.
I dared to say what was on my mind;
caused her fragile little heart to race.
She said I was offensive—unkind.
Once her feeble little stomach churned,
my free speech couldn’t be allowed to spread.
I was an offender walking free.
I said something she didn’t want to hear;
social media said she was right.
She was addicted to the offence.
confined by chastity;
men basked in the light of my glories.
longed to hear words of truth;
men deceived for their own advancement.
yearned to be truly loved;
men crawled for their own depravity.
inside your harsh fortress.
The sun never shines upon my face.
I am kept
both chaste and majestic.
I’m a figure to be ridiculed.
will I escape from here.
To be rescued from this icy place.
Grew in filth;
burned with hatred—no love.
Poison rotted our tree with no cure.
growing pains—no escape.
the truth starved my heart of tenderness.
by the endless deceit.
My peers swam in deadly toxic waste.
lust and power worshipped.
Empathy and modesty despised.
an act of kindness mocked.
Abuse and greed openly revered.
sleaze and hate idolized.
Our proud twenty-first century norms.
false praise enchained my heart;
I lacked self-belief—my constant foe.
held his gun to my head;
murdered me with his whispers of love.
nothing I could have done;
fell to the mercy of flattery.
I wanted to be feared—
have others envy and revere me.
vanity consumed me—
have others adore and worship me.
desired to rule the world—
be smart enough; be sexy enough.