In the dark

Forgive me for my youth;
I allowed him to make me old.
I am repentent.
Forgive me for my youth;
I allowed him to scar my soul.

In the dark, in the dark,
I grew while he broke my heart;
may God forgive him.
In the dark, in the dark,
I lived while they closed their eyes;
may God forgive them.
In the dark, in the dark,
I died not living my youth;
may God forgive me.

My blood flooded across the descending sun
where the Celtic Sea kissed the golden sands;
no longer could the world see what he had done.

In the dark, in the dark,
I grew while he broke my heart;
may God forgive him.

While family sang, drank and danced they didn’t see
beneath his grip and perversions I squirmed;
no one came to save my youth or set me free.

In the dark, in the dark,
I lived while they closed their eyes;
may God forgive them.

I prayed for God to deliver me from the pain;
I reached out my hand to He who died for us.
In the hands of Christ I felt my childhood wane.

In the dark, in the dark,
I died not living my youth;
may God forgive me.

They didn’t hear me call out into the starlit sky;
My terrified stare fixed on the blood stained moon.
With each thrust, I prayed for God to let me die.

No laughter, no games;
it was my youth.
No kindness, no warmth;
it was my youth.
No freedom, no love;
it was my youth.

In the dark, in the dark,
I saw my youth fade and die.
In the dark, in the dark,
My kin watched me break and cry.

In the dark, in the dark,
I was not free to just play.
In the dark, in the dark,
The world just saw me as gay.

In the dark, in the dark,
Lord, please heal my broken heart.

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